Friday, January 17, 2014

Decadent

Mellow Soulmate AU.  Cheat Arc.  As the final years of the Third Age begin, the ghost of an old enemy begins to rise from the dead and stretch its influence across the world.  Features my OMC Valthoron.  This is, however, mostly centered on Thranduil.  I blame The Hobbit movies.  They’ve got me thinking in an entirely different time period than I usually would.  Takes place in Mirkwood shortly before the events of The Hobbit.  The first warning signs of the Necromancer appear.

Disclaimer: I don’t own the Silmarillion or The Hobbit

Pairings: none

Characters: Valthoron, Thranduil (alludes to others but never explicitly states names)

Warning: non-canon compliant, slash and m!preg implied, OMC POV, mental instability, alcohol abuse, non-graphic death by spider


Words: 1,304
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decadent (adjective): marked by decay or decline; characterized by or appealing to self-indulgence

The forest was growing darker.  And with its darkening, the king’s eyes were haunted.

Oh, Thranduil was very good at hiding his secrets.  The pain and the fear that riddled his thoughts.  The encroaching dread that overshadowed his heart.  The doubt and the despair that wormed their way deep inside his core.  If one dared look, they would not see their lord and leader faltering, but merely colder and more bitter than he had been in the long years of peace.

Valthoron was not fooled for a moment.

Days were becoming shorter even when spring’s warmth was meant to turn green the boughs of their trees, even when summer’s heat came up from the south and tried to coax forth the flowering of buds and the liveliness of the forest creatures gone quiet.  No one could deny that sunlight no longer broke through those canopies overhead, no longer dappled the clearings with radiance and welcome.

Dark and dangerous was the home Valthoron had grown to love through his many long years.  And it hurt him as well.

It hurt to hear the sobbing wails of the trees echoing in his ears as their suffering overcame their ancient resilience.  Their towering bodies became gnarled and twisted, riddled with filth and parasites, rotting into putrid destruction as leaves burned red and fell to the floor to cover the softness of the moss and the grass.  They were dying, more and more every day, as the taint spread northward, crawling into the realm of the Elvenking with slow but inexorable force.  Unstoppable and powerful and evil.

But worse still were the spiders.  Creatures of wickedness and greed, they slaughtered the animals that once frequented the forest and wove their webs above the pathways through the trees older than time.  Long, sickening gangly legs and an array of black, gleaming eyes that followed passerby, stalking them through the dimness of a once radiant land…

So many deaths.  Not only of unwary travelers, but of those unlucky enough to lose themselves in the once-familiar labyrinth of trees.  All it took was a sip of enchanted water or a trip over a jagged rock or the slice of a hand upon broken and splintered bark.  The sickness would infest itself into flesh and down to bone, drag them down and down into the darkness from which none would ever awaken…

It brought waves of nausea forth, remembrance of those bodies found, bloodless and shriveled husks, emptied of their organs, left face down to poison the pools of water that once were pure or to sit upon the forest floor and blacken the soil until naught would there grow.  These bodies, Valthoron would not allow his men to touch for fear of the toxin.  They would be burned into charred ashes, and the acrid smoke would choke his lungs as it swirled up and up through the tangled of webs and trees into the sky beyond.

It was horrible.  But he could not imagine how horrible it must be for his father.

For Thranduil, who wallowed in his responsibility for his people, his duty to keep them safe in these times of encroaching evil.  For his father, who now sat upon that throne and brooded with distant eyes in the chilly silence of winter’s first kiss killing off the last leaves of autumn’s reign.  For the Elvenking, who was frightened at the age-old threat of shadow falling down over their eyes to blind them and lead them away to their doom should he falter for but a moment…

Truly, the oldest prince understood the failings of his beloved king, his father.  He understood why Thranduil’s mind darkened in the long, decadent days.  Days spent cutting their people off from the world outside to keep them safe as prisoners.  Days spent lounging upon that throne and thinking and thinking until the dark cloud strangled any bright rays of joy from that mind.  Days and days and days spent trying to ignore the signs and the warnings in vain hope that they were false.

The alcohol was a ruse.  Wine flowed into his father’s cup thrice and tenfold faster than did water.  It took more liquor to make Thranduil tipsy and woozy and smiley than it did to make Valthoron pass out in drunkenness.  A vice to try and drown away the troubles that burdened the king.

But it did not serve its purpose.  No matter how many parties were thrown in delight for the stars—the stars they could no longer see, for the forest blocked their sight from the wanderer’s eyes like a net woven of the finest, blackest of spider’s silk—and no matter how much revelry was indulged—such frivolity, an attempt to make light of the falling glory of their home as it crumbled at the foundations—there was nothing that could hide the truth.  Not for long.

The drinking turned in a more dangerous and obsessive direction.

It was in those days which followed that Valthoron beheld the fey gleam of madness beneath stillness and turquoise calm.  Fingers would clench upon the thick armrests of that throne, going white and then red beneath the weight of stress and the adornment of rich, useless jewels.  For hours and hours—hours that drew into long days and wary nights—those eyes would stare and stare as if all the answers to all the great mysteries of the world rested upon his fingers.

Thranduil would gaze upon them, drawn to white and adamant the most.  No starlight could they find in the skies, and so he sought salvation elsewhere.

Never had Valthoron seen an obsession like this.  But he heard of it—knew of it—and dreaded it with all his heart.  For it was such greed—such all-consuming lust and fiery need and pitiful longing—that had brought his wretched life into this world through pain and blood.

He could have sworn he saw the light of the Silmarilli reflected in those eyes.

“White gems” his father desired, sighed blissfully in the imagining of holding them in his palms, of their star shine overflowing through his fingers like crystalline water. “White gems of starlight threaded upon the silver of the moon’s frail whispers.  Something to bring light…”

To bring light…

It hung in the air, untouched and unfinished.  To bring light…

To bring light when their hope was as decadent as their forest and their king and their people.  It was an empty hope, a useless and childish hope, but when one could grasp at nothing but that final flimsy thread dangling before their desperate, maddened gaze…

In the end, Valthoron could not blame his father for this descent.  He could not blame Thranduil for feeling useless in the face of such a burden of command and defense.  Nor could he blame his father for growing desperate as that nightmare closed in around them, broke through the walls of the fortress of the mind and ate away at the strength underlying.

Thranduil was lonely.  He was so, so alone.  Without a mate.  Without a confident.  Without support.  Without a single drop of understanding in the universe.

And he was unraveling, the threads once forming his seams tangled around Valthoron’s fingers, falling and falling through into the depths of flame and death.  Those eyes, so bright, were darkening.  That compassion, so strong, was slipping into apathy and coldness.

There was no kindness.  There was no compromise.  There was nothing but desperation and eyes drawn to the south.

Nothing but empty prayers.

Nothing that Valthoron could do to help.  To ease this burden.  To bring back even a glimmer of that light.

Nothing but watch.  Nothing but wait.


Nothing but stand still and watch everything fall to pieces.

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